If I Lived in My Feelings

If I lived in my feelings

I wouldn’t be alive at all

I’d be on ‘da ground

With no room to even fall

I’d be six feet under

With no ability to even wonder

If there was any hope

For me to get back up and cope

If I lived in my feelings

I’d have no dealings

With a reason to live

Or a chance to even give

A single part of myself to this world

I’d be just another girl

Who called it quits

Before she took her last hit

Of oxygen through her lungs

And I know I ain’t ‘dat one

So, I refuse to live in my feelings

I’d rather live in my healings

Healing from the past

Knowing ‘dat pain doesn’t last

Always

No matter what my feelings say

Healing from the wounds

Inflicted way too soon

For me to recognize

‘Dat they came from lies

But now I’m wise

Enough to know

Some seeds never grow

To full maturity

And I can still regain my purity

As long as I live in my healings

Instead of my feelings!

Cause If I lived in my feelings

I wouldn’t be alive at all

I’d be on ‘da ground

With no room to even fall

I’d be six feet under

With no ability to even wonder

If there was any hope

For me to get back up and cope

© 2018 Christine Lombard